Rand0m thoughts..."Secret within myself"

I hold it tight,
trying not to scream with all my might
The blood comes through my skin,and will soon dissapear...
then soon a scar will appear....
tried very hard,
to hold my secret within
Now it seems that everyone knows,
And everyone cares
But truely they just feel sorry for me,
and thats what I didn't want...for people to pity me 
I am just a normal girl like everyone else,
But I have one thing different,
I have a big secret within myself


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Today is a new beginning,
A new adventure with you
When I see you my hopes and dreams come true,
But I sit here and wonder why you had chosen her over me
What did you see in her that you didn't see in me
Why can't I be her and she can be me
She might not see this but she is very lucky she has almost won a prize
She gets to be with you forever until your love will die
And I get to be alone forever,
But still loving you with all inside of me
This might sound crazy to you but it sounds like love to me

So everyday I think of all this and I think of you
it seems so crazy but I just can't help but not love you